During the genocide Emerthe lost 7 members of her family including her parents. Afterwards she was traumatized. Her heart was full of anger and bitterness to the point that she could not bear meeting a Hutu in the street.
Things got worse when she heard that Celestin; one of the offenders who took part in killing her relatives during genocide, was released from jail. She said “When I heard that Celestin was free, my heart started beating very fast that I got high blood pressure. Then, the idea of revenge on Celestin rose in my mind since I thought the government doesn’t care about our sorrow. As I was struggling to find a way to revenge, I got an invitation from CARSA to attend the trauma healing and reconciliation workshop. This helped me a lot to deal with the anger and bitterness and overcome trauma as well as the physical sickness such as headache, stomachache I used to suffer since 1994 when the genocide was stopped. Beside that I was able to forgive Celestin and release him from my heart. Since then we started the process of reconciliation, and we have been given a cow by CARSA which helped not only two of us but all our family members. Our families have come together as they were taking care after the cow. I’m amazed by how our children are very close to each other. They changed their minds and broke down the pall of suspicion between two families. After giving the first calf to Celestin, my cow has just given birth to a second one, we are happy to have our own two cows. We can now get 18 liters of milk per day, with the selling of this milk we get at least 90,000 Rwandan francs per month. We also have manure to spread on our land and sell the extra to our neighbors. There is now a growing production of crop due to the fertilizer from the cow. We can now afford the basic needs for our family, send our children to school, pay the health insurance for all members of our family and save some money.”